I'm scared that I stuffed all my intelligence so deeply far down, and swallowed it all back so far, that it's gone completely.
I'm scared to actually try to reach my potential, in case it has disappeared from lack of use.
I'm scared I won't be loved, but I reach out to all the wrong people.
I'm scared I'll never be able to get another job.
I'm scared of disappointing my mother, which I surely have done.
I'm scared I'll never find the motivation to do anything with my life.
I'm scared because it doesn't feel like God can hear me when I pray anymore.
I hate myself again.
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